"Entering, I found a small scattered congregation of sailors, and sailors' wives and widows. A muffled silence reigned, only broken at times by the shrieks of the storm. Each silent worshipper seemed purposely sitting apart from the other, as if each silent grief were insular and incommunicable. [...] these silent islands of men and women sat steadfastly eyeing several marble tablets, with black borders, masoned into the wall on either side the pulpit. Three of them ran something like the following, but I do not pretend to quote:
SACRED TO
THE MEMORY OF JOHN
TALBOT,
Who, at the
age of eighteen, was lost overboard
Near
the Isle of Desolation, off Patagonia,
November
1st, 1836.
THIS
TABLET Is
erected to his Memory BY
HIS SISTER.
SACRED TO
THE MEMORY OF ROBERT
LONG, WILLIS ELLERY,
NATHAN
COLEMAN, WALTER CANNY, SETH MACY, AND
SAMUEL GLEIG, Forming
one of the boats' crews OF THE
SHIP ELIZA
Who
were towed out of sight by a Whale,
On
the Off-shore Ground in the PACIFIC, December
31st, 1839. THIS
MARBLE Is
here placed by their surviving SHIPMATES.
SACRED TO
THE MEMORY OF The
late CAPTAIN
EZEKIEL HARDY, Who
in the bows of his boat was killed by a Sperm
Whale on the coast of Japan, August
3d, 1833.
THIS
TABLET Is
erected to his Memory BY HIS
WIDOW.
Shaking off the sleet from my ice-glazed hat and jacket, I
seated myself near the door, and turning sideways was surprised to
see Queequeg near me. Affected by the solemnity of the scene, there
was a wondering gaze of incredulous curiosity in his countenance.
This savage was the only person present who seemed to notice my
entrance; because he was the only one who could not read, and,
therefore, was not reading those frigid inscriptions on the wall.
Whether any of the relatives of the seamen whose names appeared there
were now among the congregation, I knew not; but so many are the
unrecorded accidents in the fishery, and so plainly did several women
present wear the countenance if not the trappings of some unceasing
grief, that I feel sure that here before me were assembled those, in
whose unhealing hearts the sight of those bleak tablets
sympathetically caused the old wounds to bleed afresh. Oh! ye whose
dead lie buried beneath the green grass; who standing among flowers
can say—here, here lies my beloved; ye know not the desolation that
broods in bosoms like these. What bitter blanks in those
black-bordered marbles which cover no ashes! [...]
how it is that to his name who yesterday departed for the other world, we prefix so significant and infidel a word, and yet do not thus entitle him, if he but embarks for the remotest Indies of this living earth; why the Life Insurance Companies pay death-forfeitures upon immortals; in what eternal, unstirring paralysis, and deadly, hopeless trance, yet lies antique Adam who died sixty round centuries ago; how it is that we still refuse to be comforted for those who we nevertheless maintain are dwelling in unspeakable bliss; why all the living so strive to hush all the dead; wherefore but the rumor of a knocking in a tomb will terrify a whole city. All these things are not without their meanings. But Faith, like a jackal, feeds among the tombs, and even from these dead doubts she gathers her most vital hope. It needs scarcely to be told, with what feelings, on the eve of a Nantucket voyage, I regarded those marble tablets, and by the murky light of that darkened, doleful day read the fate of the whalemen who had gone before me. Yes, Ishmael, the same fate may be thine. But somehow I grew merry again. Delightful inducements to embark, fine chance for promotion, it seems—aye, a stove boat will make me an immortal by brevet. Yes, there is death in this business of whaling—a speechlessly quick chaotic bundling of a man into Eternity. But what then? Methinks we have hugely mistaken this matter of Life and Death. Methinks that what they call my shadow here on earth is my true substance.
how it is that to his name who yesterday departed for the other world, we prefix so significant and infidel a word, and yet do not thus entitle him, if he but embarks for the remotest Indies of this living earth; why the Life Insurance Companies pay death-forfeitures upon immortals; in what eternal, unstirring paralysis, and deadly, hopeless trance, yet lies antique Adam who died sixty round centuries ago; how it is that we still refuse to be comforted for those who we nevertheless maintain are dwelling in unspeakable bliss; why all the living so strive to hush all the dead; wherefore but the rumor of a knocking in a tomb will terrify a whole city. All these things are not without their meanings. But Faith, like a jackal, feeds among the tombs, and even from these dead doubts she gathers her most vital hope. It needs scarcely to be told, with what feelings, on the eve of a Nantucket voyage, I regarded those marble tablets, and by the murky light of that darkened, doleful day read the fate of the whalemen who had gone before me. Yes, Ishmael, the same fate may be thine. But somehow I grew merry again. Delightful inducements to embark, fine chance for promotion, it seems—aye, a stove boat will make me an immortal by brevet. Yes, there is death in this business of whaling—a speechlessly quick chaotic bundling of a man into Eternity. But what then? Methinks we have hugely mistaken this matter of Life and Death. Methinks that what they call my shadow here on earth is my true substance.
(Herman Melville: Moby Dick, Kap. 7 )
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