Joseph Conrad: Heart of Darkness / Das Herz der Finsternis

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“[...] And this also,” said Marlow suddenly, “has been one of the dark places of the earth.” He was the only man of us who still “followed the sea.” The worst that could be said of him was that he did not represent his class. He was a seaman, but he was a wanderer, too, while most seamen lead, if one may so express it, a sedentary life. Their minds are of the stay-at-home order, and their home is always with them—the ship; and so is their country—the sea. One ship is very much like another, and the sea is always the same. In the immutability of their surroundings the foreign shores, the foreign faces, the changing immensity of life, glide past, veiled not by a sense of mystery but by a slightly disdainful ignorance; for there is nothing mysterious to a seaman unless it be the sea itself, which is the mistress of his existence and as inscrutable as Destiny. For the rest, after his hours of work, a casual stroll or a casual spree on shore suffices to unfold for him the secret of a whole continent, and generally he finds the secret not worth knowing.

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“I was thinking of very old times, when the Romans first came here, nineteen hundred years ago—the other day . . .

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here—the very end of the world, a sea the color of lead, a sky the color of smoke, a kind of ship about as rigid as a concertina—and going up this river with stores, or orders, or what you like. Sandbanks, marshes, forests, savages,—precious little to eat fit for a civilized man, nothing but Thames water to drink. No Falernian wine here, no going ashore. Here and there a military camp lost in a wilderness, like a needle in a bundle of hay—cold, fog, tempests, disease, exile, and death,—death skulking in the air, in the water, in the bush.

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Mind, none of us would feel exactly like this. What saves us is efficiency—the devotion to efficiency. But these chaps were not much account, really. They were no colonists; their administration was merely a squeeze, and nothing more, I suspect. They were conquerors, and for that you want only brute force—nothing to boast of, when you have it, since your strength is just an accident arising from the weakness of others. They grabbed what they could get for the sake of what was to be got. It was just robbery with violence, aggravated murder on a great scale, and men going at it blind—as is very proper for those who tackle a darkness. The conquest of the earth, which mostly means the taking it away from those who have a different complexion or slightly flatter noses than ourselves, is not a pretty thing when you look into it too much. What redeems it is the idea only. An idea at the back of it; not a sentimental pretense but an idea; and an unselfish belief in the idea—something you can set up, and bow down before, and offer a sacrifice to . . . ”

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“Now when I was a little chap I had a passion for maps. I would look for hours at South America, or Africa, or Australia, and lose myself in all the glories of exploration. At that time there were many blank spaces on the earth, and when I saw one that looked particularly inviting on a map (but they all look that) I would put my finger on it and say, ‘When I grow up I will go there.’ The North Pole was one of these places, I remember. Well, I haven’t been there yet, and shall not try now. The glamour’s off.

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The best way I can explain it to you is by saying that, for a second or two, I felt as though, instead of going to the center of a continent, I were about to set off for the center of the earth.

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Some, I heard, got drowned in the surf; but whether they did or not, nobody seemed particularly to care. They were just flung out there, and on we went.

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Now and then a boat from the shore gave one a momentary contact with reality. It was paddled by black fellows. You could see from afar the white of their eyeballs glistening. They shouted, sang; their bodies streamed with perspiration; they had faces like grotesque masks—these chaps; but they had bone, muscle, a wild vitality, an intense energy of movement, that was as natural and true as the surf along their coast. They wanted no excuse for being there. They were a great comfort to look at. For a time I would feel I belonged still to a world of straightforward facts; but the feeling would not last long. Something would turn up to scare it away. Once, I remember, we came upon a man-of-war anchored off the coast. There wasn’t even a shed there, and she was shelling the bush. It appears the French had one of their wars going on thereabouts.

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In the empty immensity of earth, sky, and water, there she was, incomprehensible, firing into a continent. Pop, would go one of the eight-inch guns; a small flame would dart and vanish, a little white smoke would disappear, a tiny projectile would give a feeble screech—and nothing happened. Nothing could happen. There was a touch of insanity in the proceeding, a sense of lugubrious drollery in the sight; and it was not dissipated by somebody on board assuring me earnestly there was a camp of natives—he called them enemies!—hidden out of sight somewhere.

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I could see every rib, the joints of their limbs were like knots in a rope; each had an iron collar on his neck, and all were connected together with a chain whose bights swung between them, rhythmically clinking. Another report from the cliff made me think suddenly of that ship of war I had seen firing into a continent. It was the same kind of ominous voice; but these men could by no stretch of imagination be called enemies. They were called criminals, and the outraged law, like the bursting shells, had come to them, an insoluble mystery from over the sea. All their meager breasts panted together, the violently dilated nostrils quivered, the eyes stared stonily uphill. They passed me within six inches, without a glance, with that complete, deathlike indifference of unhappy savages.

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“Black shapes crouched, lay, sat between the trees, leaning against the trunks, clinging to the earth, half coming out, half effaced within the dim light, in all the attitudes of pain, abandonment, and despair. Another mine on the cliff went off, followed by a slight shudder of the soil under my feet. The work was going on. The work! And this was the place where some of the helpers had withdrawn to die. “They were dying slowly—it was very clear. They were not enemies, they were not criminals, they were nothing earthly now,—nothing but black shadows of disease and starvation, lying confusedly in the greenish gloom. Brought from all the recesses of the coast in all the legality of time contracts, lost in uncongenial surroundings, fed on unfamiliar food, they sickened, became inefficient, and were then allowed to crawl away and rest. These moribund shapes were free as air—and nearly as thin. I began to distinguish the gleam of eyes under the trees. Then, glancing down, I saw a face near my hand. The black bones reclined at full length with one shoulder against the tree, and slowly the eyelids rose and the sunken eyes looked up at me, enormous and vacant, a kind of blind, white flicker in the depths of the orbs, which died out slowly. The man seemed young—almost a boy—but you know with them it’s hard to tell. I found nothing else to do but to offer him one of my good Swede’s ship’s biscuits I had in my pocket. The fingers closed slowly on it and held—there was no other movement and no other glance. He had tied a bit of white worsted round his neck—Why? Where did he get it? Was it a badge—an ornament—a charm—a propitiatory act? Was there any idea at all connected with it? It looked startling round his black neck, this bit of white thread from beyond the seas.

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“One day he remarked, without lifting his head, ‘In the interior you will no doubt meet Mr. Kurtz.’ On my asking who Mr. Kurtz was, he said he was a first-class agent; and seeing my disappointment at this information, he added slowly, laying down his pen, ‘He is a very remarkable person.’ Further questions elicited from him that Mr. Kurtz was at present in charge of a trading post, a very important one, in the true ivory-country, at ‘the very bottom of there. Sends in as much ivory as all the others put together . . . ’

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‘When you see Mr. Kurtz,’ he went on, ‘tell him from me that everything here’—he glanced at the desk—‘is very satisfactory. I don’t like to write to him—with those messengers of ours you never know who may get hold of your letter—at that Central Station.’ He stared at me for a moment with his mild, bulging eyes. ‘Oh, he will go far, very far,’ he began again. ‘He will be a somebody in the Administration before long.

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On the fifteenth day I came in sight of the big river again, and hobbled into the Central Station. It was on a back water surrounded by scrub and forest, with a pretty border of smelly mud on one side, and on the three others inclosed by a crazy fence of rushes. A neglected gap was all the gate it had, and the first glance at the place was enough to let you see the flabby devil was running that show. White men with long staves in their hands appeared languidly from amongst the buildings, strolling up to take a look at me, and then retired out of sight somewhere. One of them, a stout, excitable chap with black mustaches, informed me with great volubility and many digressions, as soon as I told him who I was, that my steamer was at the bottom of the river.

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The steamer was sunk. They had started two days before in a sudden hurry up the river with the manager on board, in charge of some volunteer skipper, and before they had been out three hours they tore the bottom out of her on stones, and she sank near the south bank. I asked myself what I was to do there, now my boat was lost. As a matter of fact, I had plenty to do in fishing my command out of the river. I had to set about it the very next day. That, and the repairs when I brought the pieces to the station, took some months.

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“My first interview with the manager was curious.

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He had no learning, and no intelligence. His position had come to him—why? Perhaps because he was never ill . . . He had served three terms of three years out there . . . Because triumphant health in the general rout of constitutions is a kind of power in itself.

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He paid no attention to my explanations, and, playing with a stick of sealing-wax, repeated several times that the situation was ‘very grave, very grave.’ There were rumors that a very important station was in jeopardy, and its chief, Mr. Kurtz, was ill. Hoped it was not true. Mr. Kurtz was . . . I felt weary and irritable. Hang Kurtz, I thought. I interrupted him by saying I had heard of Mr. Kurtz on the coast. ‘Ah! So they talk of him down there,’ he murmured to himself. Then he began again, assuring me Mr. Kurtz was the best agent he had, an exceptional man, of the greatest importance to the Company; therefore I could understand his anxiety. He was, he said, ‘very, very uneasy.’

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He struck a match, and I perceived that this young aristocrat had not only a silver-mounted dressing-case but also a whole candle all to himself. Just at that time the manager was the only man supposed to have any right to candles. Native mats covered the clay walls; a collection of spears, assegais, shields, knives was hung up in trophies. The business intrusted to this fellow was the making of bricks—so I had been informed; but there wasn’t a fragment of a brick anywhere in the station, and he had been there more than a year—waiting. It seems he could not make bricks without something, I don’t know what—straw maybe. Anyways, it could not be found there, and as it was not likely to be sent from Europe, it did not appear clear to me what he was waiting for. An act of special creation perhaps.

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Then I noticed a small sketch in oils, on a panel, representing a woman, draped and blindfolded, carrying a lighted torch. The background was somber—almost black. The movement of the woman was stately, and the effect of the torchlight on the face was sinister. “It arrested me, and he stood by civilly, holding a half-pint champagne bottle (medical comforts) with the candle stuck in it. To my question he said Mr. Kurtz had painted this—in this very station more than a year ago—while waiting for means to go to his trading-post. ‘Tell me, pray,’ said I, ‘who is this Mr. Kurtz?’

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‘He is a prodigy,’ he said at last. ‘He is an emissary of pity, and science, and progress, and devil knows what else. We want,’ he began to declaim suddenly, ‘for the guidance of the cause intrusted to us by Europe, so to speak, higher intelligence, wide sympathies, a singleness of purpose.’ ‘Who says that?’ I asked. ‘Lots of them,’ he replied. ‘Some even write that; and so he comes here, a special being, as you ought to know.’ ‘Why ought I to know?’ I interrupted, really surprised. He paid no attention. ‘Yes. To-day he is chief of the best station, next year he will be assistant-manager, two years more and . . . but I dare say you know what he will be in two years’ time. You are of the new gang—the gang of virtue. The same people who sent him specially also recommended you. Oh, don’t say no. I’ve my own eyes to trust.’

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What I really wanted was rivets, by heaven! Rivets. To get on with the work—to stop the hole. Rivets I wanted. There were cases of them down at the coast—cases—piled up—burst—split! You kicked a loose rivet at every second step in that station yard on the hillside. Rivets had rolled into the grove of death. You could fill your pockets with rivets for the trouble of stooping down—and there wasn’t one rivet to be found where it was wanted. We had plates that would do, but nothing to fasten them with. And every week the messenger, a lone negro, letter-bag on shoulder and staff in hand, left our station for the coast. And several times a week a coast caravan came in with trade goods,—ghastly glazed calico that made you shudder only to look at it, glass beads value about a penny a quart, confounded spotted cotton handkerchiefs. And no rivets. Three carriers could have brought all that was wanted to set that steamboat afloat.

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No, I don’t like work. I had rather laze about and think of all the fine things that can be done. I don’t like work—no man does—but I like what is in the work,—the chance to find yourself. Your own reality—for yourself, not for others—what no other man can ever know. They can only see the mere show, and never can tell what it really means.

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“I had given up worrying myself about the rivets. One’s capacity for that kind of folly is more limited than you would suppose. I said Hang!—and let things slide. I had plenty of time for meditation, and now and then I would give some thought to Kurtz. I wasn’t very interested in him. No. Still, I was curious to see whether this man, who had come out equipped with moral ideas of some sort, would climb to the top after all, and how he would set about his work when there.”

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“One evening as I was lying flat on the deck of my steamboat, I heard voices approaching—and there were the nephew and the uncle strolling along the bank. I laid my head on my arm again, and had nearly lost myself in a doze, when somebody said in my ear, as it were: ‘I am as harmless as a little child, but I don’t like to be dictated to. Am I the manager—or am I not? I was ordered to send him there. It’s incredible.’ . . . I became aware that the two were standing on the shore alongside the forepart of the steamboat, just below my head. I did not move; it did not occur to me to move: I was sleepy.

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‘How did that ivory come all this way?’ growled the elder man, who seemed very vexed. The other explained that it had come with a fleet of canoes in charge of an English half-caste clerk Kurtz had with him; that Kurtz had apparently intended to return himself, the station being by that time bare of goods and stores, but after coming three hundred miles, had suddenly decided to go back, which he started to do alone in a small dug-out with four paddlers, leaving the half-caste to continue down the river with the ivory. The two fellows there seemed astounded at anybody attempting such a thing. They were at a loss for an adequate motive. As to me, I seemed to see Kurtz for the first time. It was a distinct glimpse: the dug-out, four paddling savages, and the lone white man turning his back suddenly on the headquarters, on relief, on thoughts of home—perhaps; setting his face towards the depths of the wilderness, towards his empty and desolate station. I did not know the motive. Perhaps he was just simply a fine fellow who stuck to his work for its own sake. His name, you understand, had not been pronounced once. He was ‘that man.’ The half-caste, who, as far as I could see, had conducted a difficult trip with great prudence and pluck, was invariably alluded to as ‘that scoundrel.’

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“In a few days the Eldorado Expedition went into the patient wilderness, that closed upon it as the sea closes over a diver. Long afterwards the news came that all the donkeys were dead. I know nothing as to the fate of the less valuable animals. They, no doubt, like the rest of us, found what they deserved. I did not inquire. I was then rather excited at the prospect of meeting Kurtz very soon. When I say very soon I mean it comparatively. It was just two months from the day we left the creek when we came to the bank below Kurtz’s station. “Going up that river was like traveling back to the earliest beginnings of the world, when vegetation rioted on the earth and the big trees were kings. An empty stream, a great silence, an impenetrable forest. The air was warm, thick, heavy, sluggish. There was no joy in the brilliance of sunshine. The long stretches of the waterway ran on, deserted, into the gloom of overshadowed distances. On silvery sandbanks hippos and alligators sunned themselves side by side. The broadening waters flowed through a mob of wooded islands; you lost your way on that river as you would in a desert, and butted all day long against shoals, trying to find the channel, till you thought yourself bewitched and cut off for ever from everything you had known once—somewhere—far away—in another existence perhaps. There were moments when one’s past came back to one, as it will sometimes when you have not a moment to spare to yourself; but it came in the shape of an unrestful and noisy dream, remembered with wonder amongst the overwhelming realities of this strange world of plants, and water, and silence. And this stillness of life did not in the least resemble a peace. It was the stillness of an implacable force brooding over an inscrutable intention. It looked at you with a vengeful aspect. I got used to it afterwards; I did not see it any more; I had no time. I had to keep guessing at the channel; I had to discern, mostly by inspiration, the signs of hidden banks; I watched for sunken stones; I was learning to clap my teeth smartly before my heart flew out, when I shaved by a fluke some infernal sly old snag that would have ripped the life out of the tin-pot steamboat and drowned all the pilgrims; I had to keep a look-out for the signs of dead wood we could cut up in the night for next day’s steaming. When you have to attend to things of that sort, to the mere incidents of the surface, the reality—the reality, I tell you—fades. The inner truth is hidden—luckily, luckily. But I felt it all the same; I felt often its mysterious stillness watching me at my monkey tricks, just as it watches you fellows performing on your respective tight-ropes for—what is it? half-a-crown a tumble—”

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The steamer toiled along slowly on the edge of a black and incomprehensible frenzy. The prehistoric man was cursing us, praying to us, welcoming us—who could tell? We were cut off from the comprehension of our surroundings; we glided past like phantoms, wondering and secretly appalled, as sane men would be before an enthusiastic outbreak in a madhouse. We could not understand, because we were too far and could not remember, because we were traveling in the night of first ages, of those ages that are gone, leaving hardly a sign—and no memories. “The earth seemed unearthly. We are accustomed to look upon the shackled form of a conquered monster, but there—there you could look at a thing monstrous and free. It was unearthly, and the men were—No, they were not inhuman. Well, you know, that was the worst of it—this suspicion of their not being inhuman. It would come slowly to one. They howled, and leaped, and spun, and made horrid faces; but what thrilled you was just the thought of their humanity—like yours—the thought of your remote kinship with this wild and passionate uproar. Ugly. Yes, it was ugly enough; but if you were man enough you would admit to yourself that there was in you just the faintest trace of a response to the terrible frankness of that noise, a dim suspicion of there being a meaning in it which you—you so remote from the night of first ages—could comprehend. And why not? The mind of man is capable of anything—because everything is in it, all the past as well as all the future. What was there after all? Joy, fear, sorrow, devotion, valor, rage—who can tell?—but truth—truth stripped of its cloak of time. Let the fool gape and shudder—the man knows, and can look on without a wink. But he must at least be as much of a man as these on the shore. He must meet that truth with his own true stuff—with his own inborn strength. Principles? Principles won’t do. Acquisitions, clothes, pretty rags—rags that would fly off at the first good shake. No; you want a deliberate belief. An appeal to me in this fiendish row—is there? Very well; I hear; I admit, but I have a voice too, and for good or evil mine is the speech that cannot be silenced. Of course, a fool, what with sheer fright and fine sentiments, is always safe. Who’s that grunting? You wonder I didn’t go ashore for a howl and a dance? Well, no—I didn’t. Fine sentiments, you say? Fine sentiments, be hanged! I had no time. I had to mess about with white-lead and strips of woolen blanket helping to put bandages on those leaky steam-pipes—I tell you. I had to watch the steering, and circumvent those snags, and get the tin-pot along by hook or by crook. There was surface-truth enough in these things to save a wiser man. And between whiles I had to look after the savage who was fireman. He was an improved specimen; he could fire up a vertical boiler. [...]

Das Herz der Finsternis (deutscher Text bei gutenberg.spiegel.de)

Darin lag Scheinwahrheit genug, um auch einen weiseren Mann als mich retten zu können. Und zwischendurch hatte ich auch nach dem Wilden zu sehen, der als Heizer diente. Er war ein bewährter Vertreter seines Berufes; er konnte einen senkrechten Kessel heizen. Er arbeitete dort unter mir, und – auf mein Wort! – ihm zuzusehen war ebenso erbaulich, als wenn man einen Hund betrachtet, der, in Hosen und Federhut gekleidet, auf den Hinterbeinen spazierengeht. Wenige Monate der Abrichtung hatten bei dem wirklich feinen Kerl genügt. Er schielte nach dem Dampf- und Wassermesser, in augenscheinlicher Anstrengung, unbefangen zu erscheinen, und dabei hatte er noch spitzgefeilte Zähne, der arme Teufel, hatte die Wolle auf seinem Kopf in absonderlichem Muster geschoren und drei Ziernarben auf jeder Wange. Von Rechts wegen hätte er auf dem Ufer oben in die Hände klatschen und mit den Füßen trampeln sollen. Statt dessen war er hart an der Arbeit, ein Sklave fremden Zauberwerks und voll höheren Wissens. Er war nützlich, weil er unterrichtet worden war. Und was er wußte, war, daß, wenn das Wasser in dem durchsichtigen Ding verschwinden sollte, der böse Geist drinnen im Kessel infolge der Größe seines Durstes böse werden und furchtbare Rache nehmen würde. So schwitzte er und heizte und beobachtete dabei furchtsam das Glas; er trug ein aus Fetzen schnell zurechtgemachtes Zauberamulett um den Arm gebunden und hatte sich ein poliertes Knochenstück, so groß wie eine Taschenuhr, flach durch die Unterlippe gezogen. Unterdessen glitten die waldigen Ufer langsam an uns vorbei, der kurze Lärm blieb zurück, die endlosen Meilen des Schweigens – und wir krochen weiter, auf Kurtz zu. Aber die Baumstämme waren dick, das Wasser war heimtückisch und seicht, der Kessel schien tatsächlich einen boshaften Teufel im Leibe zu haben, und so hatten weder der Feuermann noch ich Zeit, unseren trüben Gedanken nachzuhängen. [...]
Am Abend des nächsten Tages glaubten wir noch etwa acht Meilen von Kurtz' Station weg zu sein. Ich wollte weiterfahren; aber der Direktor machte ein ernstes Gesicht und sagte mir, die Schiffahrt dort oben sei so gefährlich, daß es ratsam scheine, weil die Sonne schon recht tief stehe, da, wo wir eben waren, den nächsten Morgen abzuwarten. Er hob auch hervor, daß wir uns, wenn wir die Warnung, uns vorsichtig zu nähern, ernst nehmen wollten, bei Tage nähern müßten, nicht in der Dämmerung oder im Dunkeln. Das klang vernünftig genug. Acht Meilen bedeuteten für uns fast drei Stunden Fahrt, und überdies konnte ich am Ende der Stromstrecke verdächtige Kabbelwellen sehen. Trotzdem ärgerte mich der Aufschub über alle Maßen und auch ganz unsinnig, da ja nach so viel Monaten eine Nacht mehr nicht viel ausmachen konnte. Da wir Holz zur Genüge hatten und Vorsicht geboten war, ließ ich das Schiff mitten im Strom vor Anker gehen. Das Fahrwasser war eng und gerade, mit Seitenwänden wie ein Eisenbahneinschnitt. Das Dämmern glitt herein, bevor noch die Sonne untergegangen war. Der Strom rann glatt und schnell, die Ufer lagen in dumpfer Reglosigkeit. Die lebenden Bäume, die die Schlingpflanzen untereinander verknüpften, jeder lebende Busch des Unterwuchses, alles hätte in Stein verwandelt sein können, bis zum dünnsten Zweig, zum kleinsten Blättchen hinunter. Es war nicht Schlaf – es wirkte unnatürlich, wie in einem Traum. Kein noch so leiser Laut war zu hören, man starrte verwundert vor sich hin und begann zu fürchten, man sei plötzlich taub geworden – dann fiel unvermittelt die Nacht ein und machte einen überdies noch blind. 

Gegen drei Uhr morgens sprang ein großer Fisch hoch, und das laute Aufklatschen ließ mich auffahren, als wäre ein Geschütz abgefeuert worden. Als die Sonne aufging, herrschte ein weißer Nebel, ganz warm und klebrig, bei dem noch weniger zu sehen war als während der Nacht. Er wallte nicht, trieb auch nicht, war nur einfach da und stand rings um einen, wie eine feste Mauer. Gegen acht oder neun Uhr etwa ging er in die Höhe, wie ein Vorhang aufgeht. Wir konnten einen kurzen Blick auf die turmhohen Bäume tun, auf das ungeheure, zusammengeballte Dschungel, auf die weißglühende, kleine Sonnenkugel, die darüber aufgegangen war – alles reglos still –, dann senkte sich der weiße Vorhang wieder nieder, als glitte er in geölten Schienen. Ich ordnete an, daß die Kette, die wir anzuhieven begonnen hatten, wieder nachgelassen würde. Bevor sie noch aufgehört hatte, mit gedämpftem Rasseln auszulaufen, kam ein Schrei, ein überlauter Schrei, wie von unendlicher Trostlosigkeit, durch die opalfarbene Luft. Er brach ab. Dann klang uns ein Wehklagen, rauh abgestimmt, in die Ohren. Das war so unerwartet, daß sich mir vor lauter Überraschung die Haare unter der Mütze sträubten. Ich weiß nicht, wie es die anderen empfanden: mir schien es, als hätte der Nebel selbst aufgeschrien, so plötzlich und offenbar von allen Seiten hatte sich der wüste Trauerlärm erhoben. Er gipfelte in einem überstürzten, fast unerträglichen Kreischen, das plötzlich abbrach und uns erstarrt in allerlei törichten Stellungen zurückließ, hartnäckig weiter dem fast ebenso bedrückenden, übermäßigen Schweigen lauschend. [...]

Wir waren gerade langsam um eine Krümmung herumgepaddelt, als ich mitten im Strom eine Insel sah, die kaum mehr als ein strahlend grüner Grashügel schien, die einzige ihrer Art; als wir aber weiter um die Biegung herumkamen, bemerkte ich, daß sie die Spitze einer Sandbank bildete, oder vielmehr einer Kette von Untiefen, die sich in der Mitte des Stromes hinzogen. Sie waren farblos und alle hart an der Oberfläche zu sehen, gerade wie das Rückgrat eines Menschen inmitten des Rückens unter der Haut kenntlich ist. Soviel ich nun sah, konnte ich rechts oder links daran vorbeifahren. Ich kannte natürlich keine der beiden Durchfahrten. Die Ufer sahen auf beiden Seiten ziemlich gleich aus, auch die Tiefe schien die gleiche; da mir aber gesagt worden war, die Station liege auf dem Westufer, so hielt ich natürlich auf die westliche Durchfahrt zu.

Kaum waren wir richtig drin, da merkte ich, daß sie viel enger war, als ich angenommen hatte. Zu unserer Linken lag die ununterbrochene Kette von Untiefen, und rechts das hohe Steilufer, dicht mit Unterwuchs bestanden. Über den Unterwuchs erhoben sich die Bäume in gedrängter Masse. Die Zweige hingen dicht über dem Strom, und da und dort ragte auch ein großer Ast waagrecht hinaus. Es war schon spät am Nachmittag, der Wald stand düster da, und ein breiter Schattenstreifen hatte sich über das Wasser gelegt. In diesem Schattenstreifen dampften wir hinauf – sehr langsam, wie ihr euch vorstellen könnt. Ich hielt das Schiff hart am Ufer, da dort das Wasser am tiefsten war, wie mir das Lot bewies. [...]

Merkt es euch, ich versuche weder zu entschuldigen, noch zu erklären – ich versuche nur mir selbst Rechenschaft zu geben über – über – Herrn Kurtz – den Schatten des Herrn Kurtz. Dieser Wiedergänger aus dem großen Nirgends, in die letzten Geheimnisse eingeweiht, beehrte mich mit seinem überwältigenden Vertrauen, bevor er endgültig verschwand. Der Grund dafür war, daß er Englisch mit mir sprechen konnte. Der ursprüngliche Kurtz war teilweise in England erzogen worden, und wie er sich wohl am besten selbst sagen konnte: seine Zuneigung war am rechten Platz. Seine Mutter war halbe Engländerin gewesen, sein Vater halber Franzose. Ganz Europa hatte bei der Erzeugung von Kurtz mitgeholfen; und nach und nach erfuhr ich auch, daß die Internationale Gesellschaft zur Unterdrückung wilder Sitten ihn sinnigerweise mit der Abfassung eines Berichtes betraut hatte, der in Zukunft als Richtschnur dienen sollte. Diesen Bericht hatte er auch geschrieben. Ich habe ihn gesehen. Ich habe ihn gelesen. Er war schwungvoll beredt, aber vielleicht doch etwas überspannt, denke ich. Er hatte Zeit gefunden, siebzehn Seiten eng vollzuschreiben! Doch das muß geschehen sein, bevor er es, sagen wir, mit den Nerven zu tun bekam und er dazu überging, bei gewissen mitternächtlichen Tänzen den Vorsitz zu führen; diese Tänze endeten mit unaussprechlichen Riten, die, soviel ich widerstrebend nach und nach aus verschiedenen Mitteilungen entnehmen konnte, ihm dargebracht wurden – versteht ihr mich – Herrn Kurtz persönlich. Aber der Bericht war prachtvoll geschrieben. Heute allerdings, auf Grund der Mitteilungen, die ich seither erhalten habe, erscheint mir die Einleitung von übler Vorbedeutung. Er begann mit der Behauptung, daß wir Weißen, auf der Höhe der Entwicklung, die wir erreicht hätten, ihnen (den Wilden) notwendig als übernatürliche Wesen erscheinen, – ihnen mit göttlicher Machtvollkommenheit entgegentreten müßten, und so weiter, und so weiter. Durch einfache Anspannung unseres Willens könnten wir tatsächlich eine unbeschränkte Macht zum Guten ausüben, und so weiter, und so weiter. Von diesem Ausgangspunkt erhob er sich in die Lüfte und riß mich mit sich. Die Ausführungen waren prachtvoll, wenn auch nicht leicht zu behalten. Sie gaben mir die Vorstellung exotischer Weiten, über die ein erhabenes Wohlwollen herrscht. Ich bebte vor Begeisterung. Das war die schrankenlose Macht der Beredsamkeit – der Worte – der glühenden, schönen Worte. Keine praktischen Winke unterbrachen den Zauberstrom der Phrasen, wenn man nicht eine Art Fußnote am Ende der letzten Seite, offenbar viel später und mit zitteriger Hand mit Bleistift hingekritzelt, als Ausführungsbestimmung gelten lassen wollte. Sie war sehr kurz gefaßt und traf einen, am Ende dieses ergreifenden Mahnrufes zur Nächstenliebe, völlig unerwartet, wie ein Blitz aus heiterem Himmel: ›Alle die Hunde ausrotten!‹ Das Merkwürdige dabei war, daß er diese gewichtige Nachschrift augenscheinlich ganz vergessen hatte; denn später, als er teilweise wieder zu sich kam, beschwor er mich wiederholt, auf sein ›Pamphlet‹, wie er es nannte, zu achten, da er sich davon den günstigsten Einfluß auf seine künftige Laufbahn versprach. Ich war über alle diese Dinge genau unterrichtet und sollte, wie sich später zeigte, überdies auch sein Andenken hüten. Ich habe genug dafür getan, um das unbestreitbare Recht für mich in Anspruch nehmen zu können, daß ich es nach Gutdünken auch im Mülleimer des Fortschritts hätte zu ewiger Ruhe bestatten dürfen, mitten unter dem Kehricht und den, bildlich gesprochen, toten Katzen der Zivilisation. Aber seht ihr, ich kann ja nicht nach meinem Gutdünken handeln. Er wird nicht vergessen werden. Was immer er auch war, er war nicht alltäglich. Er hatte die Macht, unverdorbene Gemüter so zu bezaubern oder zu erschrecken, daß sie ihm zu Ehren einen Teufelstanz mit erschwerenden Begleitumständen aufführten. [...]

.›Was ist das?‹ fragte ich. Er schlug verwundert die Hände zusammen.›Die Station‹, rief er. Ich hielt sofort darauf zu, immer noch mit halber Kraft. Durch mein Glas sah ich einen Hügelhang, mit wenigen Bäumen bestanden und ganz frei von Unterwuchs. Ein langes, verfallenes Gebäude auf dem Gipfel war halb in dem hohen Gras begraben; die großen Löcher in dem spitzen Dach gähnten von weitem schwarz her; das Dschungel und die Wälder bildeten den Hintergrund. Es gab keine Umzäunung oder Abgrenzung irgendwelcher Art. Doch war augenscheinlich eine dagewesen, denn nahe beim Hause standen noch ein halb Dutzend dünner Pfähle in einer Reihe, roh behauen und an ihrem oberen Ende mit runden, geschnitzten Kugeln geschmückt. Das Gitter, oder was sonst sie untereinander verbunden hatte, war verschwunden. Natürlich schloß der Wald das alles ein. Das Ufer war geräumt, und hart am Wasser sah ich einen weißen Mann unter einem Hut von der Größe eines Wagenrades, der unermüdlich mit dem ganzen Arm winkte. Während ich die Waldkante oben und unten beobachtete, glaubte ich ganz gewiß Bewegungen zu sehen, menschliche Formen, die da- und dorthinglitten. Ich dampfte vorsichtig vorbei, stoppte dann die Maschine und ließ das Schiff zurücktreiben. Der Mann am Ufer begann zu brüllen und forderte uns dringend auf, zu landen.›Wir sind angegriffen worden‹ schrie der Direktor. ›Ich weiß, ich weiß. Schon recht‹, kreischte der andere zurück, so herzlich wie möglich. ›Kommt nur, es ist schon recht, ich freue mich.‹

Sein Anblick erinnerte mich an etwas, das ich gesehen hatte – etwas Lustiges, das ich irgendwo gesehen hatte. Während ich manövrierte, um anlegen zu können, überlegte ich,›wie sieht der Bursche aus?‹ Plötzlich hatte ich es. Er sah aus wie ein Harlekin. Seine Kleider waren aus einem Zeug gemacht, das ursprünglich wohl braunes Leinen gewesen, jetzt aber über und über mit Flicken besetzt war, mit bunten Flicken, blau, rot und gelb, hinten und vorn, an den Ellbogen und den Knien; eine farbige Kante rings um seine Jacke, ein scharlachroter Besatz an den Hosensäumen; und im Sonnenschein sah er unendlich lustig und dabei sehr sauber aus, und man merkte genau, wie sorgfältig die Flickarbeit gemacht worden war. [...]

Kapitel 3:

Der Zauber der Jugend überglänzte seine bunten Flicken, seine Verkommenheit und Einsamkeit, die trostlosen Male seines ziellosen Wanderns. Monate lang – Jahre lang, war sein Leben keinen Pfifferling wert gewesen; und da stand er nun vor mir, ganz springlebendig, hochherzig, unbekümmert und allem Anschein nach unantastbar, nur infolge seiner jungen Jahre und seiner bedenkenlosen Kühnheit. Ich fühlte mich zu etwas wie Bewunderung, ja Neid verleitet. Ein Zauber trieb ihn voran, ein Zauber hielt ihn unversehrt. Er verlangte sicher nichts weiter von der Wildnis als Raum, um atmen und immer weiter wandern zu können. Er wollte leben und unter den denkbar größten Gefahren und schlimmsten Entbehrungen sich weiterbewegen. Wenn je der völlig reine, nicht berechnende, wirklichkeitsfremde Abenteurergeist ein menschliches Wesen beherrscht hatte, so diesen flickenbesäten Jungen. Ich beneidete ihn beinahe um den Besitz der kleinen, klaren Flamme. Sie schien alle Gedanken an ihn selbst so gründlich aufgezehrt zu haben, daß man sogar, während er mit einem sprach, völlig vergaß, er selbst – der Mann da vor einem – sei durch alle diese Dinge gegangen. Seine Ergebenheit für Kurtz allerdings neidete ich ihm nicht. Darüber hatte er nicht gegrübelt. Die hatte ihn überkommen, und er hatte sie mit übereifrigem Fatalismus hingenommen. Ich muß sagen, daß mir diese Ergebenheit das weitaus Gefährlichste schien, was ihm je begegnen konnte. [...]